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Well, Christmas is nearly over for me, to Bognor today for a family mash up with the Glasscock side of the family. It was a weird one this year, broke all traditions, but not in a bad way, necessarily. For over ten years me and my sister never came home after spending afternoon/evening with my dad, and we never spend Boxing day at home, this year, we did them. May not sound big to you, but when these ritual things change for me, it feels strange. But we always to nanny Glasscock's bungalow at some point,.. so get in! Haven't posted a blog in ages and sorry to start in rather gloomy but I shall kick-start it now into an array of fun and excitement........phwoar. You know when you get put on the spot you can't think of anything, like yesturday, sharades, what a failure, only the same 3 people got up out of 8 because non of them could think of anything, or was too embarrassed to get up in some way or another. Do you get that with your family? Or when you play sharades? Apperently its a 'London thing' according to Chris as well. Really?I was really embarrassed yesturday. I let out the largest fart against the sofa, completely forgetting we had company.. aka very conservative mumsboyfriendsparents people there. My family laughed, they didn't. I was actually shocked, it was a good fart, it ripple my bum, it felt nice but hurt at the same time, you know, when it really pops fast as air escapes? yeaaah....niceeeeee. But after I released I remembered we had company. HAHA, was excellent entertainment. As I get older, and I'm guessing as everyone does, and not being a Christian, I struggled getting into Christmas, I think I'll get it back when I have my own children and see them get excited. It even snowed this year and I didn't feel Chrsitmassy, I'm guessing there's other things in a 20 year old's life that take over, especially uni, that distracts you. then when the actual day comes, its not a big build up, thus, just a good day I suppose. People that have shit Christmas, I want to know what that means, is it because you didn't get the presents you wanted, or that it wasn't as good as expected, when it could only be as good as that because were not in a film. It may be because your family argued or it literally was just another day, but I couldn't hate it just for being boring, I would only want Christmas to end if it reminded me of a bad time in life, or something bad literally did happen, not the turkey burning. If I could tell you the tense and uproar activities that occur Christmas evening as I was growing up, you would not believe me, but luckily I would have a toy to escape with, and I still look back and say awwww they were good christmas', probably just because I was young and look beyond that, like all the cousins being there ect. I don't know, I'm not a psychologist, I may be talking rubbish. I also discovered this Christmas that I like ritual. I take after my dad on that aspect as I also learned this Christmas. Why? someone would ask. Because its Christmas would be the reply. A shit example but I hope you get the jist. Like, I even think, aww next year at uni will be my last Christmas there, So, I WILL HAVE to celebrate. It will be last weekend at home soon, until i go back to uni, and I WILL HAVE to drink to it. Its not an excuse to drink, but I always think about these things, even if i'm going to be coming back the next week for a birthday or something. Very weird. But yes. My housemate Chris doesn't agree with this, and we tried to figure it out before we left last week, why I love tradition and ritual and why I may be scared to miss out on it, not even a ritual thing, an event, even though I know I won't enjoy the evening or day for some reason or another I have to go, whatever the reason, but, we never did. Not yet.